Checking in Again

Well, we finally have internet!

Also, this means updates will be a bit more regular.

So, how are things going?

Um. Not horrible?

My head has been in kind of a weird place recently in regards to my weight. Some days I wake up and think I look so much thinner (pictures to come!) and slack off on my diet because I'm hot shit already.

Other days I think that I'm still huge and if 10 bites a day is good, zero bites a day should be better!..but then I get hungry. Then the next day I end up feeling worse, not because I cheated, but because I obviously am fatter.

That doesn't sound very healthy, now does it?

I know this is bad. I know this is an unhealthy mentality. Through all my dieting this past year, I've never really felt that way. This is exactly why people eventually move to intuitive eating. I'm debating recommitting to intuitive eating. This can't be healthy, right?

On the other hand, if I just stick with 5 Bites until I get to a point where I'm at least more comfortable with my body, then I can switch and not hate my body. I can lose the last 10 or 15 pounds with intuitive eating.

The problem is the last 10 or 15 pounds is still 40 pounds away. I'm not sure where I'll be mentally by the time I get there.